May is almost over!

I hope everyone had a great Memorial Day weekend, I sure did! Fishing with great friends!

I say this all the time... but it is so crazy how fast time goes by. School is getting out, that is NUTZ-O! I've been graduated for 4 years. Holy crap on a spatula. I am old. I feel like I haven't done much with my life in the past 4 years, sigh. As school is getting out and everyone is starting to enjoy summer, I'm busier than I have ever been in my entire life and most days I'm lucky if I get outside to feel how warm or cold it is. My time is spent driving, in classrooms, and of course, at the hospital. But it's good... learning so much stuff. Everyday my mind gets totally blown. I had orientation today at Utah State Hospital (psychiatric facility). We do our psych clinicals at UVRMC and at the Utah State Hospital. LOVED my first clinical at UVRMC. Psych nursing rocks. Orientation today at USH was interesting... I'm glad I have a little background in the psych department with my job because if I didn't, I would be pretty overwhelmed and nervous, like many of my classmates are. For most of the day, we heard many stories of how patients have escaped, stabbed employee's (you know, the usual), and we went through many safety interventions.

We had the opportunity to do a simulation of what it is like to be schizophrenic. Very interesting, and very scary. We wore headphones that played a recording of many voices. Most voices are VERY negative. While we listed we had to do certain simple tasks. It was so difficult. It made me sad. Sad that so many people struggle with this horrible disease. It also helped me understand many of my patient's behaviors better. The woman who developed the simulation has her PhD in Psychology and she has the diagnosis of schizophrenia. I am amazed by this woman and all of her achievements with such a debilitating disease. It was a really big eye opener and a great experience. I am slightly nervous to do clinicals at the USH... they house most of the criminally insane, high profile cases that we hear on the news. They also house many people who are not that severe. It will be interesting and I know that I will learn a lot. 

Anyway, not too much new with me... just the usual, crazy!

Clarification

As I sit in the most boring history class on the face of the earth, my mind is racing (as it often does). I just wanted to clarify my last post about exercise and facebook. You can post all you want on facebook about eating healthy and your workout. I was merely stating my opinion, and I will continue to stand by what I said. Regardless, don't let me (or anyone else, for that matter) stand in your way of doing what you want. If you like to post things about your workout routine, then so be it. As for me, I think it's the wrong place to do that sort of thing. Mostly because mine would say something like... Ran a few yards today, almost died, sweating profusely. Haha! My intention was definitely NOT to offend or hurt anyone's feelings. Do whatever suits your fancy and floats your boat. :)

Have a lovely day blogger world!

My Workout

First off, let me just say that with this post I will probably offend someone. Please, please, please know that is NOT my intent. I love you, no matter what... Even if you are that person who tells me what you ate for every meal and how many calories you burned during your workout, I still love you and you are still a great person. :)

Health. I study health, medicine, and the human body everyday. So yes, I am "pro-health". I am not as healthy as I would like to be and I have great respect for those that run miles and miles everyday, and eat a healthy diet. It is okay to post things you are passionate about, and I understand that some people are passionate about their diet and exercise routine. Although, sometimes people go a bit overboard on pinterest and facebook. It's about balance, as is everything else in life. I struggle with balance in many areas of my life, so I'm just as guilty as everyone else. I could rant about this all day long, instead I will post a few quotes that make my point. And no, these quotes are not from my mouth but I wholeheartedly agree!

"Unless you stole it, eating food should feel guilt free. I'm all about being healthy, but I'm tired of seeing "guilt free" recipes show up on my pin feed. Eating food, no matter what the caloric intake, is not a moral act. You are no better or worse whether you eat birthday cake for breakfast or high fiber bran cereal."

"I need to be skinnier love myself."

"Unless you fell off of the treadmill and smacked your face, no one wants to hear about your workout."

And that ladies and gentlemen, that is my workout. ;)

Right Here

"Be where you are, not where you think you should be".

This, right here, in life. . . this is exactly where I want to be. This past year has been the most difficult for me, personally and professionally. I have made a lot of changes in my personal life and in my educational life. And I am so happy! It has been a year full of struggles and it continues to be, but it is so beautiful. I love where I am at in my life. I couldn't ask for anything better. I am sooo blessed! I try to put my expectations of where I think I should be at in life right now, behind me. My hope each day is to only expect that I am present and in the moment, instead of just getting through the day. I am engaged in my life and I am learning to embrace all of the good, with the bad. Things are far from perfect yet, they are so perfect. I have faced trials that have challenged every single part of me. My logic, my emotions, my body, my brain, my values, my relationships, my fears, my failures, my triumphs. . . they have all been challenged. Changing and evolving is a struggle, but it is such a beautiful struggle.