Everything won't be okay. . .but YOU will be!
Working all weekend is never fun. Saturday was pretty calm, Sunday was crazy busy. Car accident after car accident, chest pains rolling in, drug overdoses, drunk people (my favorite-not!), attempted suicides, babies with rsv, I could go on and on. Sunday we saw it all. It wasn't necessarily a bad day, just a busy one. As my patient was sleeping (love it when they do that!), I was thinking about how many people I've seen at their worst, at the lowest low of their life. With the job that I do, I see a lot of people at their worst. I've seen a lot of people "broken" and hopeless.
Then as I tuned out the beeping monitors and chaos around me I started to think about my own life and how many times I've felt hopeless. Whether it's for a day, a week, a month, whatever. We've all felt hopeless at times for whatever the reason. Feeling hopeless is different than feeling discouraged. Feeling hopeless is falling down but thinking that everything will be okay and just when you start to get up again, life kicks you down once more. Or the unimaginable happens, like a bad dream but it's not a dream and you wonder how to go on with a happy heart. And this continues on for so long, and then you start to question whether everything really will be okay. You like to believe it will but you weigh reality into the equation and the outcome starts to look like maybe everything won't be okay. -That's feeling hopeless. It's a terrible feeling!
I know I still have a lot of life experiences to experience. In my 20 years, I've seen and experienced quite a bit. A concept that has been difficult for me to accept and something that I have come to realize in the past month is that everything probably won't be okay. That's right you heard me, everything won't be okay. But YOU will be okay. Bad things will happen. Unimaginable things will happen and it will never be okay. But you will make it through and you will be okay. I still have a lot to learn but I do know that it's okay to say that everything isn't okay, but you must know that you will be okay. It's okay to feel hopeless at the end of the day, what matters is waking up the next day and trying. It's okay to face the bad things in life and let them be apart of you instead of pushing them away. When I started typing this ah-ha moment it all makes sense and I think it's such a simple idea but actually doing it in life, isn't so simple. . . or maybe this is just news to me and all of you readers already have figured this out (I am a little slow). Nevertheless, I think its something we can all work on. . . embracing the good and the bad, admitting that it isn't okay but you are.
The bad things that happen to all of us will never be okay, but if we embrace them (hard thing to do), we will soon learn that we will be okay!
And that my friends, is my new life goal!
